Go with the flow

16
May

We’ve had fights, normal ones, but this one is just me getting out of control now. It used to be me trying to figure out how to make you happy all the time. I’ve promised to you so many times that I’ll never raise my voice on you again, and not fight at the smallest things. Whenever we fight, it always starts from the smallest things, and then it’ll get bigger and bigger. I’m already getting sick of myself. This is just getting out of control, I just don’t know why I can’t control myself anymore. but no matter what happens, I’m not going to leave you. This time, I REALLY, really, really promise, I will never. never. never. NEVER. ever. going to hurt you again. I promised that I’d hurt the person hurting you, but I already know it’s me hurting you. but I know you don’t want me hurting myself, so I’ll just keep trying and trying to change. You already know how much I hate it when I act like this, it’s always had been me. Don’t blame yourself, because it’s me doing all the damage. Just never forget that I’ll always love you and I will never let you go. Ever since the beginning, we knew that were gonna be facing these kinds of problems, and were gonna have our ups and downs on our relationship. I’m really sorry for what I did today, I wish I could just step back in time and stopped myself. I understand how you feel and what you want, but I don’t understand myself. Please forgive me, I didn’t mean to hurt you, we’ll have these kinds of fights, I’m learning from it, and I’m sure we both are. We’ll work things out. I’m not gonna let our relationship stay like this. I’ll do anything and everything to make everything stable again, but I’ll never leave you. I don’t care if a lot of people get mad at me, I don’t care whatever happens to me, as long as I have you, and you’ll always have me. I don’t care what people think about me. I’ll always have hope and faith and trust in you, I’ll change, I will.
16
May

Him: I feel dead inside, but there’s always gonna be that love leftover always gonna be strong for you. i love you baby
15
May

It hits me hard having to know you’ve been sitting there for a long while now. I understand you’ve had problems from each table and how people who saw what you did will think of you as that angry person. Not sure if you realized, my heart dropped while doing your assignment and I didn’t want to leave you. I did want to go to my table but I wanted you to come with me and have a seat with us again. Why are you letting people get to you? I know you don’t want to deal with them and that you don’t want to cause problems but when you isolate yourself like this. It makes me feel like this is how you would be if I never met you and no one else planned to do the same. You are not alone and you don’t have to feel ashamed. I care about you in every single way and I don’t want you to be this way )’:
14
May

I miss how innocent minded I was back then and I wish I could take it back.
14
May

I honestly have to say what’s the fucking point of doing homework when both teachers literally don’t peer their eyes into my paper and only look at it from how lengthy it is than the work that is put -____- I know it’s my damn responsiblity to know my work and how it should be done and when I should ask questions about it. But seriously, I’m getting so sick of this lack of motivation that has been going on ever since the start of Sophomore year and I admit I did not do anything so it’s my fucking fault. BULL SHIT
14
May

craving some chinese food and bubble tea right now <3
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13
May

Stay Positive: How to treat your girl right.
staypozitive:
- Whatever you do, don’t just show up at their house…they run around in their underwear just like we do.
- Don’t cheat on them. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything. Trust me, they WILL find out.
- Beware of every single male relative and all guy friends. Any…
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May

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12
May

I just want to feel respected in every single way without a tear.
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9
May

When I feel like this I don’t want to express my feelings through words. I want to express my feelings when I embrace you in my arms and how badly I don’t want to let go. Because words are not always needed.
9
May

Just really losing it all. I don’t know what it is but I’m losing myself. My grades suck, I don’t know how to get along with my parents anymore, I stopped practicing to drive, I get in trouble a lot, and I don’t know what my love life is.
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